So... FML.

I'm in a poly relationship that has zero chance of actually being anything more than a basic relationship. That means we act like a couple, but in the end, he already has his wife. I'm not going to be #2, not just cause it's illegal, but cause they won't integrate me into the family for fear of their loved ones turning on them... So Im in love with someone who loves me, but I'm just a secret. Right now, this is all I have, which is why I still went ahead with this relationship even though all parties made it clear it can't last long-term, only if it's on the side...

I have had failed relationships and I don't see a future for myself. I don't have anyone who is going to grow old with me, and take care if me when I'm sick, or who I can go out in public with and he can be "mine", and I can love. Either way I'm fucked.

I honestly don't see a happy ending in my future and it kills me. I don't know what I want to do for my career. I can't afford even to live on my own. All I want is someone to love me and call me his own. I don't want to end up alone. What's the point in living if it's going to be spent by myself? No one to share life with. I don't even have remotely supportive or kind parents to keep me going. I don't know how I ended up a decent person with those assholes raising me. I want to curl into a ball and die. I keep trying to think of reasons to live but it's so bloody fucking difficult.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Dec 29, 2011 at 6:57 PM

1. its not illegal to have an affair with someone,its looked down upon but the law will not get involved

2. if he really loves you, then you should make him leave his wife. if he refuses, he obviously does not truly love you, and you should find someone who you truly think is "the one"

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Sep 28, 2012 at 10:52 AM

1. stop seeing him 2. start going out to different places. 3. bars are not good places to meet anyone for a long term relationship. 4. start going to a excercise club. it's healthy, you meet nice people and it gets your mind off him.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on May 15, 2013 at 6:47 AM

You sound just the sort of guy i want, I agree it would be so nice to cuddle and kiss a guy who truely loves me and lives with me who holds me in his arms and tells me he loves me, So get out of this cruel relationship and remember there are guys out there who will love you the way you want and deserve to be loved. x

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