my business was failing. so i began prostituting myself out of it. i was on paxil and poping pain killers and i didnt feel right in the head. i had one client come to the shop and i blew him for the 40 bucks he gave me. but then he pined me down on the table and raped and sodomized me. then left. after he left i began slicing up my arms, legs, breast, and stomach with an exacto blade. i wanted to mutilate myself. i burned myself with ciggarettes and matches stuck needles into my skin. after about an hour i called a friend and told him i was raped. he insited i go to the hospital. i never told him my wounds were self inflicted, and i never told that to the hospital staff. they did my kit and sent me on my way. i fantasize about horrible things all the time. i fantasize about one of my best friends brutally beating and raping me and then choking me to death. i fantasize about brutally raping and torturing other women and even girls as young as 14. i have seriously considered raping another chick many times. i keep thinking about what would happen if i got shot or stabbed. im curious about what it feels like.

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by Anonymous on Aug 1, 2013 at 4:51 AM

get your ass into rehab now and get some help before you wind up in prison or dead.

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