i did not start vaginal insertions til I was 25 after having a thrush infection from antibiotics I was inserting creams and kind of got interesting in trialing insertions.

prior to that I would masturbate but never insert, mostly out of fear, I did not use tampons as i could not fit them up and it was too painful.

I wanted to be a virgin on my wedding night because I thought that i was ment to be with William and i wanted to have the hymen and all in tact. he would come over on and off to the house but never looked at me or talked to me. he was very engrossed in being a guy into computers.

I was wanting someone like him to help me and talk to me. this may sound silly to some but i do know that some young boys are more mature then some older men. surprise surprise!!!!

i was so hurt over William after one night my father told him to leave with his mate acting stupid on drugs and drunk...

I loved William but no longer feel safe to feel much for him now.

but by the age of 25 I just got tired of waiting for a young man to love me and all i got was abuse and violent men sexually assaulting me..i guess i broke down and gave up. i used to cry a lot alone in my room on and off and try to be positive but i felt deeply negative about myself because of childhood abuses.

like the song by avril "I got tired of waiting" and waiting and waiting to be good enough to be loved by a young man...

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by Anonymous on Oct 1, 2013 at 5:12 AM

with regard to #2, if you kill yourself, you'd never see the look on their faces. Worry about the shit you can control and don't give a shit about the things and people you have no control over. Fuck 'em...they aren't worth the sweat around your asshole.

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