I'm diagnosed anorexic/bulimic. I've been struggling with it since my early teens. It is something I keep very private, not even my family know, though I'm sure they suspect. I like to think of myself as an extreme dieter. I eat healthy now. Breakfast example: 1 piece of fruit (80-160 cal) + 1 cup of coffee with 1/3 cup fat free milk (30 cal). Lunch example: 1 slice whole wheat toast (50 cal) + 2 celery stalks (20-30 cal) with 2 table spoons of peanut butter (190 cal) + Omega3&5 Fatty Acid pill (20 cal) + 2000 iu D3 + B vit complex + 400 mg folic acid + 1000 mg calcium + multi vit. Dinner example: 2 oz Protien (Chicken, Beef or Fish 140-300 cal) + vegetable (50-100 cal). For a grand total average of 550 - 950 balanced calories a day, most of the time its right around 650 cal. I only purge after I'm forced to eat more than normal, like for example a family BBQ. I'm 5 foot 7 inches tall with a small frame and I've been able to maintain a weight of 90 pounds for the past few years. My lowest adult weight was 76 pounds so in the eyes of my doctor 90 is good. My therapist has also helped me to feel more confident and to embrace a curvier body.

I recently got engaged and I decided to tell my fiancee about my illness. He was not surprised, in fact he told me that he has known for a while. He is attracted to very thin women and he mentioned that I wasn't the first anorexic/bulimic he has dated. It surprised me that he was so OK with it. I was happy he didn't try to make me eat more like my doctor. Except I've learned that maybe he is just a little too ok with it. At first he encouraged me to purge a few times when normally I wouldn't have. Then he started accompaning me to the bathroom when I purged. The first time he did that I was disturbed by it, but I quickly got used to his presence. It was nice to finally have a like minded person that I could talk to about it too.

But it doesn't end there. One thing I've never been able to do is give a man a blow job, because in my youth I became used to purging my self with my fingers. The first and, up until recently, only time I tried to give a blow job I vomited into his lap the instant his dick touched the back of my tongue. When I told my fiancee about that he wanted to do it. So I gave him a blow job in the shower after dinner one night and I was able to finish him in my mouth and purge a big meal all at the same time. I don't understand why, but my fiancee liked it a lot. So now we do it regularly and he's happy with the results since I'm down to 87 pounds and counting. I know it isn't healthy, either mentally or physically, but we are enjoying ourselves and I feel so proud.

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by Anonymous on Apr 27, 2014 at 3:15 PM

#1 You need to ditch your 'so-called' boyfriend. He's just using you for his need for deviant sexual pleasures. Can't you see he really gets off on having sex with extremely thin girls-and making you give him BJs when he knows it will result on your vomiting your last meal is a real turn-on for him.

You really need a supportive, loving partner; someone who will help you gain control of your emotional instability and build your self-confidence in every possible way. I'm sure you are a beautiful young woman and can do without someone who is content to see you lose weight and endanger your health.

Go out and find someone genuine, someone who really loves you!

Good luck,

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by Anonymous on Apr 28, 2014 at 11:58 PM

Your boyfriend also has an illness- he is metally ill. You both need serious help or it will end badly.

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by Anonymous on May 8, 2014 at 10:02 AM

My wife is a recovered anorexic. Please get help. You two really need it. He's going to end up killing you with this. I really hope you get some help and soon.

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