My family situation is beyond not normal here. When I was two my mother divorced my father and my mother moved in with her best friend. This is how I got my 'daddy'. I have an 'older brother' and 'older sister', not biological. I was 11 when I realized my mommy was getting it with my 'daddy'. The signs were always there, my mommy 'lived' with my 'daddy' and his wife. My mommy slept with him and many times I found them in bed in the morning, but I was 11 when I realized my 'daddy' was having sex with my mommy. My 'step mom' told me that mommy's like daddies and daddies like mommies and I should be happy that my 'daddy' liked my mommy enough to make her a real mommy in his house

My big brother and I were close, he is two years older than me. As the youngest I have always been my daddy's little girl. I don't remember when, but before I was seven my daddy decided I would be my big brother's wife. In my house there has always been a lot of talk about babies, both my big sister and I grew up raised to become wives and to have babies. It is in our DNA.

When I was 17 in my last year of high school I was convinced that when I graduated I would get married. That is all I talked about. My big brother tolerated me. I was extremely clingy with him at that time, if he left me alone I would get very upset, so he took me everywhere with him. He was in college and he had me hanging with him and telling all his friends how I was going to be wife and as soon as I graduated we would get married for real.

When I was told that it would be better if I waited for him to finish college I was devastated. My big sister was married and she was pregnant already. I went to work for my daddy at his factory, but I was not focused and he decided that maybe I should go to college and grow up.

College was a new world and I met a lot of people and for the first time I started to question my family. I started to call my parents father and mother and I forced my mother to admit to me that my father wasn't my real father and how she decided to have me with another man instead of him. I also talked to her about getting married to my older brother at home and she told me that if I knew what was good for me I would get married and make it work. My 'father' was never going to accept me being with another man.

I went through a long period resenting that my father wasn't my real father, I blamed my mother for allowing herself to be with another man. I swore to myself that I would never be with another man.

My older brother had finished college by then and I was a junior and I was told that as I was in college I should finish before getting married because going to college with a baby was too hard. It was really a revelation to me one day when I figured out that I could be married and I didn't have to have a baby right away. That idea was met with a harsh reprimand from both my mother and my big brother. So I had to wait the longest two years of my life.

I am married now, and I have a baby. I went to my wedding bed fully charged for getting pregnant. My older brother is now my husband, and in spite of several people telling me that it was a form of i****t to marry him, I went to my wedding bed determined to be his wife and not his little sister.

Yesterday we had a big party at my parent's house, and everyone wanted to meet my baby. At one point I was sitting on the couch between my father and my big brother, and I was his little girl and I was his little sister again. My new little baby was in my arms sound asleep protected like I was protected growing up.

My family situation may be strange out in the big world, my parents are all immigrants, and little or no English was spoken at the party. My baby will grow up with different customs, maybe one day she will be the right person for her older cousin, he is six and he likes to hold her and give her kisses. She is his to protect. He has been told.

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by Anonymous on Dec 21, 2015 at 7:20 PM

To try and make some sense of this, what is your background?

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