I want to put this out there. I don't consider myself a lesbian.

I have an unnatural attraction to certain types of girls. I always have. It is an attraction for sex, not emotional involvement.

I have always been athletic, I played softball and soccer in high school. I experimented with the catcher on my high school softball team. We were together for two years and then she left me to date a football jock. It devastated me to see her with him.

In college I played softball and intramural soccer. There were lots of opportunities to hook up with girls, in particular this one girl I played soccer with. But she was very aggressively lesbian and that turned me off. Still I was very attracted to her and we were quite active sexually. She was very aggressive at times, which turned me off, but to be with her I had to let her.

After college I became an assistant coach in a junior high. I fixated on some of the girls, always the same type. But I kept that to myself. It was during that time that I met my master. He bent me into who I am today. He recognized that if I stayed with my job at that school I was going to get in trouble and had me move to a junior college where the girls were all of age.

He provided me with different types, he taught me to accept him when I was with a girl. The combination made more and more subservient to him, deepening my dependence on him and accepting him more and more as my master. But even if he did provide me with girls, they were never the right one. I wanted the right one.

He hired a trader to look for the right girl for me and bought her from him a gave her to me as my pet, to live with me and for me to take care of. She is exactly what I wanted, very athletic, soccer and swimming, and she has accepted my master as her master. She sleeps with me every night and I can take care of her. She is not finished with her college education, but she is mature for her age.

Like me she is not a lesbian, she is attached to our master, he is who we identify with. Like me she has a need for being with a girl, a need that comes from very deep inside of her. Like me she has had this need since she was in grade school. It is totally a physical need, once satisfied we don't have deep feelings afterwards. This is different with our master, pleasing him and being with him is all we want.

While we sleep together, it is because of his pleasure that we should sleep together. Sex is with him, and for his pleasure, and we get to experience our pleasure with each other. Yes, sometimes we have deep need for each other, and we have permission if we can't wait for him. But what we really want is to be with him and please him.

So we don't consider ourselves lesbians. Lesbians don't belong to a man and don't serve a man. We do. We are something different, just what we are we don't know. Our ultimate proof of serving him is that we are prepared to give him children, when he considers us fit to do so.

For now we will call ourselves bi-sexual, in that we are both attracted to other women, but we would never forge a relationship with one. That commitment belongs to our master.