As incredible as this may sound I am today totally obsessed with allowing a 59 year old man examine me once every month. This man is my stepfather and it has been going on since I was about 12 years old. I'll be 20 this coming Janruary and even though I realized for many years that it is abuse I now let him do this simply because it is sexually stimulating to me. He and my mother raised me from the time I was only 3 but up until I was 10 or 11 I don't remember him trying to do anything sexually abusing to me. It started mostly with him continually trying to see me naked and slowly was able to have me tolarate his invasions of my privacy. I suspect because of the way he spoke to me always flatteringly telling me how lovely I was and how beautiful my body was that I got to the point where I didn't care if he saw me naked. It was almost always when my mother was out of the house but even sometimes when she was at home. My mother became very ill about the time I was 12 and that was the beginning where he somehow convinced me to let him give me physical examinations since I had just gotten my first period. At that time it was usually a weekly exam where he would have me naked and the way he touuched my body was probably similar to a massage. The first half dozen times were embarrassing but he had me at ease and I had no fear of him. By the time I was between 14 and 15 my mother became so ill that I moved in to my aunt Brenda's house who lived less than a mile away. I would visit my mother a few times a week so my stepfather continued with the "examinations". By that time I not only complied when he wanted since for many months before that he began arousing me enough that I began having orgasms. My breasts had developed well and he often had me aroused by touching them claiming it was only a breast examination. When I was 17 my mother died and after a few months went by he wanted me to visit him. The second time I went to see him was when he mentioned I should still have the exams on a regular basis. I was old enough then to know he was using me for his sexual benefit but I still allowed him to do it because I to shamefully liked him to touch me. I was very open with him and began going for a visit, which meant an exam, twice a month. He did question me often asking if I was still a virgin and I had already admitted to him a couple years before that I did masturbate. By the time I was 18 I no longer layed in the bed for the exams because he bought what I assume is a massage table. That year I finally admitted I wasn't a virgin and thats when the examinations became much more intense since never before had he actually penitrated my vigina. All the sudden I was having strong and frquent orgasms. I'm sure he had to be aroused by what he was doing with me but he never disrobed and never exposed himself to me. There were times when he was in PJ's and I could see he had an erection but even now he has never tried to have sex with me or even have me touch him.

I live in a dorm at school now but I still go see him once every month where he always has me get an exam. He either knows I enjoy it or thinks I'm a complete idiot for letting him do this to me. This past summer I saw him twice a month and for the first time allowed him to shave me down there. My boyfriend was supprised but naturally thinks I did it myself which I do now until I see my stepfather again. He only ask me if I would like him to start shaving me and I instantly said yes. I've had my boyfriend masturbate me a few times but for some reason I am not as excited and don't orgasm as often when he does it. When I visit my stepfather I have no modesty and undress right in front of him. Once I lay down on the table its far from an exam and more like a frenzy of stimulation where I am almost instantly aroused by the way he touches my body. He doesn't penitrate me right away but there are times I orgasm before he does. Over the last couple years he also began penitrating me anally and remember the first time he did I was so aroused it never bothered me. My boyfriend has never done that to me and I can honestly say I enjoy it and it is arousing to me. My stepfather has been doing this for so long now he knows exactly what to do to get me aroused and even more so knows how to have me orgasm. There have been many times I have orgasmed 4 times in one session and has never used anything more than his fingers and hands. Just the way he rubs inside my thighs and over my vagina I often orgasm and he surly knows when I do. I'm sure my mother never knew anything about this and I have never told anyone mostly because it is so indecent to let a man that age satisfy me the way he does. Its clear that years ago it was out and out child abuse on his part but now I not only permit it but also look forward to seeing him. Being in the dorm I often masturbate with thoughts of it and sometimes when having sex with my boyfriend think about my stepfather. I question my own morals and when I really think about it all I know my relationship with my stepfather is shamefull. During classes when I know I'm going to visit him that week I start getting excited and feel myself getting aroused just thinking about it. I know I have been manipulated by him but am obsessed with the way he stimulates me and how I so easily orgasm so many times.

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by Anonymous on Dec 6, 2016 at 1:13 PM

Its unusual that this hasn't evolved intoo him pleasuring him self in front of you or you pleasuring him or you two having sex. Unless he has erectile dysfunction.

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by Anonymous on Feb 10, 2017 at 9:04 AM

Holy smokes this is HOT!!! I will my step father started to play with me when I was young and developing.

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by Anonymous on Aug 26, 2018 at 12:38 PM

You need to start sucking his cock and begging him to fuck you.

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