I am not bisexual. I am a lesbian. I have known I was a lesbian since about the sixth grade. I like girls, I like having a sexual relationship with a girl. I like the feeling a girl gives me when she gives herself up and we have sex. I have been in love several times with a girl since I was pretty young. I am a lesbian.

But I am not stupid. Lesbians, at least the ones I have met, are difficult. I imagine I am difficult. A man can handle me, but I never met a woman who could handle me. And on the flip side, I can deal with a man, all his needs, from small petty needs to major life commitment needs. In the end, a long term relationship with a woman did not materialize and I gave myself to a long term relationship with a man. I married him and I decided to go ahead and have children. I am descent wife, a pretty good mother and my husband gets regular sex.

For a while I bottled up my feelings or need for being with a girl. I give in it to it from time to time, sometimes I give into it a whole lot, and some times I give in to it just enough for a quick get together. I do not get into it with a married bisexual woman who wants to play around. It isn't about sex, but it is about having sex with a woman that is attractive to me. And during my marriage I have had two very deep and long crushes on women.

I have been called a dyke, I tend to be aggressive about getting it on, but in the end I think I am passive. That is why I am ok with my husband being the dominant partner. If you ask me I believe that I am open and I will take initiative, and I am attracted to femme lesbians. I like women who dress up and like to be presentable and who don't walk around with a big L on their forehead. When we are together the guess is that I am the lesbian, but not the girl I am with. I like slow and seductive and I don't want to be around issues on her sleeve. I have made peace with being a lesbian and I am not a feminist about it. I don't want to be both a lesbian and a bitch.

My husband enjoys the pleasures of having a wife, and he gets tail both ways, up front or up the back. With him I like starting with lots of foreplay, lots of nakedness, and for him to go full bore up my vagina but finish me off with deep anal. There is just something I have not been able to explain to myself about him dominating me up the behind. A good sound ass fucking will generally keep me quiet for a several days if not weeks. I only generally get horny for being with a girl when he travels, which is part of his job. I think it is the sleeping alone.

But, especially now, after I have sex with a woman I want to go home. I don't want to create a relationship.

So, I am lesbian, I am not bisexual, I do have sex with one man, my husband. I found I enjoy being the wife in the relationship and have really taken to it. It is easy for me.

In my twelve years of marriage I have never felt a desire to be with another man. It must be him.