A week later, I was showing our vacation video using my external hard disk when unwittingly I had left those nude pictures of my niece in a labeled folder. My wife opened the folder and saw some of the pictures. She was undestandably upset. Prior to this, I had taken only nude pictures of wife while the two of us were on a short vacation.
She had asked me to get rid of pictures so I erased those pics in the hard drive. but, I kept other copies and a couple of nights ago, while being bored and having had extensive fights with my wife for the last two weeks, I was busying myself in our bedroom by creating web pages for my wife's pictures so I could post them on a secret website. But, I had unwittingly (again) tinkered with my niece's pics for a web piece as well. just as it was done, the software springs a web page for proofing and right at that very second, my wife walked in, noticing the picture. she is very, very upset, not to mention all those feelings from the last few weeks just crashing in at the same time.
My feelings when I was taking nude pictures of my niece? I was excited but not in a sexual way. I have loved nude human pictures since I was a kid, drawing them mostly. Only in the last year or so, I venture into photography. even then, it was with my wife. I do work in a position that requires me to deal with photographs and videos, albeit nowhere near having to deal with nude women!
I understand my wife's feelings for being betrayed, by me as well as her niece, who's actually a proper and sweet person. I had abused their trusts, both my wife's and my niece's. Do I feel guilty? yes. Would I defend my action? yes. It was non sexual. I had done it because it felt safe and because I believe it wouldn't lead to anything sexual.
But, therein lies the problem: I had assumed that because it was my niece, photographed in our bedroom, with my wife sleeping in our bed, that it would be OK.
If I could turn back the clock what would I do? (naturally, the oldest and laziest excuse for a relieve, but here goes anyway) I would have made sure that my wife doesn't know about those pics!
It was non sexual. What made this bad is the fact that I wasn't sensitive enough to hide those pics so that my wife wouldn't find out about them.