I will start off by saying that my husband and I have a great marriage (married 12 years)
and have 2 children. We are very happy.
He will sometimes joke about me sleeping with another guy, or we will roleplay about it for
fun. He insists the most exciting night for him was the very first year after we were married,
I made out with another guy on New Years Eve as he watched (the guy got my top off, but that's
where I stopped things).
We have guys at our house this week doing a complete kitchen remodel. Of course for the past
week and especially this past weekend my husband and I have talked about how "convenient" it
would be for me to have guys actually here at our house already. Both he and I got pretty
turned on about the possibilities, and we had more sex over the weekend than we had in the past
couple months! lol
So - here I am , with young strong guys in the other room (and one of them, Paul, is super cute)
with my husband's permission to pursue things if I wanted.
This is funny - he already called me once and asked if there were any "updates" so far. Its
only been a couple hours!
I know our marriage is sound enough and secure enough. Its not like I would leave my husband
and my family for a guy I was having sex with just for fun. I am just so nervous about it.
I certainly cant talk to family and friends about it, so here I am..
I am excited at the idea of being intimate with someone new. And if just TALKING about me
doing it has been so exciting for us, I am hoping if I went through with it, it would be
something special my husband and I would have as a memory for years.
My husband would NOT want Paul to know that he gave me permission. Nor does he want a 3some
to happen or anything like that.
He thinks it would be more exciting if Paul thinks he is just helping me cheat on my spouse.
We both laugh about at the end of the week, and my husband paying him....lol.
Imagine what Paul would be thinking!
And one other thing we discussed was that my husband can NEVER expect the same kind of "free
pass" from me. But he assures he would not care about that - he would just be so turned on
thinking about me at home, possibly in our own bed, with another guy.
My kids are at a friends house now, so today would be risky. But with them at
school for the next 4 days, and me alone with the men here...omg...I am pretty excited about
it.
I would be SO happy to be able to call my husband at work and just say "it happened".
He would leave early to get home to me probably I bet! lol
Its down to the whole should I/shouldn't I situation.
The big downside I guess is that I sometimes worry if my husband would look at me different after it happens....or will he still be as in love with me as always.
I know there are "swingers" out there, but this would be nothing like that. An affair for a few days with my husbands approval. Would that be so bad???
I am already trying to time my trips to the kitchen area to when Paul is there by himself.
Its kind of nice that it's warm out, I can get away with wearing less.
I guess the first step is to flirt a little.....
Did I tell you I am so nervous just thinking about this?????
Its to the point where I will feel bad for NOT doing it for my husband, I think about how disappointed he would be.
I am probably over thinking all of this.
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