I would say I am currently obsessed with two topics. The first is when did you go gay and I aim really into hooking up with older 50+ men, i've given on the drama, I just want to suck cock and get fucked.

I am pretty sure I went gay when I was 12. I sucked him the cabaña and he sucked me when we were 9. I made him cum in my mouth and got my first taste of semen. My mouth and face I was sleeping over and when I did we sucked. The next morning when we got up we went to the bathroom to pee and I got the urge for him to pee in my mouth, first time swallowing urine. This opened a whole new game, the feel and taste of hot urine is an over the top turn on. Between nine and twelve we licked butt hole, we put penis and butt hole together, and of course he peed in my mouth and face, usually in the pool cabaña. And we sucked and he would cum.

I wasn't gay yet.

One late summer afternoon, we were 12, I was sucking him in the TV room and the pool man saw us. Several days later he asked us if we peed on the cabaña floor, because he noticed that when we swam there was always pee on the floor. He asked us what we were doing, we played dumb. He leaned down and told us he knew we were a couple of little faggots. He said he had seen me sucking him off and he figured we were into pee play.

He took us to the cabaña and whipped out his cock and we both had to suck him. He had a real erection by then and he asked us who was going first, because he was going to fuck us. And he meant right then. He said I was a good looking boy and he kissed me and fondled me, then he put his finger on my butt hole, he spat on my back, and I felt his finger go in. that felt really good, we laid down on the dressing bench, he got me to open my legs and slowly ever so slowly, every inch followed, and it hurt a little, but mostly it was great and I wanted more and more until he fucked and he withdrew. My butt felt funny but good and after a few minutes some semen came out. When he kissed me again I melted and fell in love. That is the day I went queer.

My friend didn't let himself get fucked, so he wasn't a queer.

The pool man was in his forties, and I sucked him, and he got off from time to time, and we fucked and it got better and better. And he kissed me.

For a while I tried to keep up with younger guys, I'm a bottom and I need to get fucked, but now I am hooking up with men my age or older who just want sex, no strings attached. It feels so much better this way, and if they are tops, the fucking is a lot better.

So there you have it,

Bob, Palo Alto, California