like I feel so guilty about what I eat. I just want someones opinion am I a guts?
most days I just have oats and apple and berries for breakfast with milk and lunch a small milk and today I had half a sandwich of pork and apple and cheese and crackers with a cup of tea, cheese is my calming food. I love savoury dishes and salads but gone off sweets.
I want a good body and to feel healthy and fit, so I am not out of breath and I would like to be jogging on treadmill and doing more body weight exercises and heavier weight lifting like the other girls do. like all I do is about 16-20 kg weights or sometimes I do 80kg weights on the push exercises but I see girls half my size doing a lot more. I just want to see the weight change and fat loss and more muscle showing. I can't seem to stick to diet protein shakes as I like to chew my food and enjoy tastes. I wouldn't mind if some protein diet shakes were not so full of goop and sugar and shit.
i count all the calories and watch what i eat to the point i am barely eating because I feel guilt and I have been studying nutrition for over 3 years and feel more confused now then ever and don't trust a lot of doctors advice as most of them are just trying to sell programs or their own line of products.