when you are down people know how to rub it in. most times when I have been financially or emotionally or spiritually, sexually or academically down people seem to enjoy it then they wonder why as you age you begin to enjoy hearing about others downfalls and failings and defects and faults and mistakes and joy in knowing they are hated and criticised and its not just you who cops it.

right now I am sad about my life in every area and all I ever see is happy fuckers fucking and people who get riches and jobs and rewards for rudeness and women who are evil get sex and love when they are the most disgusting person you could wish to meet.

I keep to myself and most of my problems no one ever asks me "how do you really feel inside about the way you have been let down by others when its always you holding everyone up on high to see the stars and fireworks and get their glories off like getting their jollies and rocks down in their pants off", does she ever discus my hurt and anger and write it down and find a way to make change? no. she is a useless person in a glamour job who gives me the creeps now.

I gave her what she wanted but I won't be going back I think and I need to find a new person to confide in and someone who is not involved with people I no longer want to associate with. the nigs and roasters and the monarchists and richy users.

poverty does bring purity in all ways, if we only knew half of what the rich do we would be shocked.

for me I am struggling for the last 30 years to see myself as a human and as a person worth love or income and to be honest it insults me that some one like mehgan merkle can marry up as she does and the onslaught of media coverage about their shitty romance and dirty smut. and baby 5 and 18 kate and will when I am older then them and deserve more then them by age and maturity alone. They have no right being better off then me when I studied and worked so hard to be someone better then the shit they do and have gone on with for decades.

and your the worst in the world when you can't be happy for them or like them. every time I see them on tv or on mags I cringe in creepy uncomfortableness at their successes and undeserved rewards and look the other way.

I do this also with other people I used to have as friends who abused me and had kids and several husbands. they sicken me. they disgust me those baby making childish goey scum scuz love making creepy couples who honestly think people care about them is the biggest joke out.

sorry but I am not sorry to say I think mehgan and harry both are so ugly they deserve each other sort of like rick and katey. and wills and katey a very uncharismatic group indeed.

I love to hear about their problems and what awful people they are and I feel that way about most famous people and rich people and everyone actually, and I know I am not alone in this feeling so many people have come out in the last 24 hours and the last 7 years expressing a similar feeling about how people who get to the top that don't deserve to be there.

and she has no shame either that she has already been married as if one husband was not enough so I guess 2 won't be when the next hot guy comes along? its just all the media bullshit of their wedding and babies I am sick of, so many people are sick of this hole FACE ACT they put up and diana was not a quality to the royals but the begining of their downfall so was the queen allowing tv into their worlds, we just don't want to know about them.

I find it insulting that these rich twats can go to their palaces and riches and parties and wank off on tv about how they know about mental illness and they have no idea, its an insult not a compliment and fewer and fewer people are impressed with a HRH supporter in a charity now days when almost anyone is a celebrity on youtube chanels and tin poke town divas who are trash.


I seen this guy clarry at kmart and he would suit felicity right, the new odd couple thing is so in. its like putting
Charlie Sheen in at working at Channel shops and chanel in at walmart or elllen to call at the local bingo club behind the counter and does that guy practice dumb looks or is it just natural like harry and kate and wills and merkles silly hip swing pose that looks deformed. it really is a smelly anyting-aling goes now world crapaprrta.


its not that I want to be these people or have what they have, I just think if the little mongrels are allowed to get ahead I should have by now and long before them seeing that I am older and better then them and I know a lot of people who feel this way and don't want to like the queen and royals anymore. I don't watch music clips or go to the movies anymore to avoid seeing a face I don't like to see on the big screen everytime he is faceoffing and reminds me of when he pv'd me. and it wonders why I don't like it everytime I see its face.

that is all i have to say.

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