Being black and bi sexual my whole life, there is still an itch that has never been scratched. It's my darkest kink and my most perverted fantasy and I've only came close to having it satisfied.
My early boyhood gay experiences where with white boys my age. I don't know why, but that's just how it happened. They were nothing special, just touching and a little tasting but by the time I was in my late teens I had two ongoing fetishes...one was cum and the other was white guys older then me.
With today's political and racial climate I'm walking a tight rope in my mind because although I despise racism I crave sexual domination by a white man. And I'm not talking just getting fucked or sucking a dick, I really want racially humiliation. The thought of a big cocked older guy, throat fucking me while panting, " Suck that cock, you fucking n****r" , really turns me on. Even writing this has me so GD hard!
I really want the most humiliating race-play imaginable. Why? Why do I want a white man to literally spit in my face right before he cums in my mouth and orders me to swallow? It's mind blowing to me and I doubt I will ever find a guy willing to but being racially degraded with sex involved really drives me crazy. I pre-cum in my boxers with the thought of being fucked in my ass while being called a worthless black POS. I fantasize about relaxing my asshole so I can be pounded harder. I need to jack off, but if any can tell me why I enjoy this fantasy so much, please do.