my life, starting at about 8 years old (I'm 59 now) I have been turned on by BDSM, even before I knew what it was, I was having
fantasies about being tied up, humiliated and punished.
When I reached puberty these things started sexually exciting me. I also started fetish crossdressing at this time. Even though I
had sisters and access to their things, I gravitated towards my mother and grandmother's garments. Even though I had
access to their hose, panties, slips, dresses and shoes, I was drawn to control briefs, girdles, matronly swimsuits and swimcaps
with a chin strap. Now it has been over 50 years and I still am a BDSM submissive, I like to take kinky sexual risks, I still like
humiliation and I still am turned on by the same fetish items.
One other thing. In my late teens I started to exclusively be attracted to older, plumper
women about 10-20 years older than me. In
my teens and 20's I was attracted to women in their 30s & 40s. The age of the women progressed as I grew older and now that I'm
in my late 50s, I am turned on by women in their 60s & 70s.
I have never met anyone who admitted liking the same things I like. Am I unusual in respect to my fetishes and taste in women?
Also, what are some possible reasons I have been this way over 50 years?