Straight Female / 29
I am not the prettiest of girls and have a crush on this guy who is very handsome. I know he will never ask me out or be my partner as he goes out with much prettier girls. I am 29 and know I really don't have much time before I become a single cat lady. I work hard but just can't seem to attract any guys. I did have drunk sex with him and i get the random drunk late night calls when he has no other option and asks me to come over to his place. I guess I kid myself to thinking he calls because he wants me, but I know he just wants to fuck . That's ok with me because I get to have him for some time all to my self. He doesn't make love to me or is sweet or cuddles, like I said he just uses my pussy and tits.
I am on the pill, which is stupid because I only take it for the eventuality I get a call from him. So I've decided to stop taking it and get him to get me pregnant. That is the only way I know I will have some relationship with him for the rest of my life, well and his. I know I'm going to ruin his opportunities to maybe marry a beautiful girl and have this fairytale family, but I want him in my life and really don't care if he marries someone else. All I know if that I will always be the first one to have his baby.
I am on the pill, which is stupid because I only take it for the eventuality I get a call from him. So I've decided to stop taking it and get him to get me pregnant. That is the only way I know I will have some relationship with him for the rest of my life, well and his. I know I'm going to ruin his opportunities to maybe marry a beautiful girl and have this fairytale family, but I want him in my life and really don't care if he marries someone else. All I know if that I will always be the first one to have his baby.