A couple months ago I got too drunk at a college party. When I woke up around 5am I felt very uncomfortable and didn't immediately realize why. First, I was totally naked, no clothes in site; second, I realized there was a beer can inside my vagina. As I pulled it out so much sperm poured out of me, it was then I realized that there was already a giant wet spot on the sheet of the bed. I have no idea how many times nor how many guys fucked me. I'd only let two guys put fingers inside me before, a girlfriend I was having oral sex with stuck her fingers in me too, but that was it. I was so sore from that big can I just started to cry. I went to the bath to clean up and then found a pair of sweats and a tee shirt and finally found my shoes. I never found my actual clothes. I went to my dorm room which I share with my girlfriend. She and I are in love, or so I thought. Her only words on my coming in, as I was about to tell her I was r**ed . . . "so the slut comes back".

She dumped me, and everyone around the dorm was telling stories about me and how many guys I let fuck me. I'd never been fucked before and I have no idea who was first, nor how many followed him. My former girlfriend says she left after 14 guys had fucked me AND I was awake at the time, she says! Then the pictures of me naked, getting fucked, and passed out leaking, as well as the can inside me started being tacked on the bulletin board. After that I just let guys fuck me. If you take me out, you get to fuck me. I've been gangbanged at 3 other parties since. I just don't care anymore, I'm naked at parties in front of up to 100 people and they all know what a whore I am. My ex makes a point of kissing her current love in front of me, and even brought her into our dorm room and made love to her with me in the next bed. I just wish I could at least get an idea of who did it to me first, just so I know who it was. What kind of slut can't answer the question as to who was her first?

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Nov 14, 2018 at 11:14 AM

If this is true... You need to make a fresh start, go to a different school at semester break.

Or, stop whoring yourself out and get some self respect. You are young, got your whole life ahead of you. Stand up for yourself. Surround yourself with people who care about you, not all these assholes.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Nov 14, 2018 at 11:20 AM

First commenter is right. Plus you were probably drugged. Leave that school and your so called friend. A true friend would have gotten you out of there. Minimally stopped the r**e.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Nov 14, 2018 at 1:17 PM

What sort of beer can was it ? Was it empty or full?

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Nov 14, 2018 at 8:05 PM

If you haven't yet, get tested for any STDs just to be safe. Also, seek a counselor, you might still be traumatized.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Nov 15, 2018 at 1:03 PM

Sounds like you were drugged and rapped then lost all self esteem confidence etc. I feel sorry for you even though I would like to fuck You as well. Good luck! Sounds like you could sell it then retire

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Nov 15, 2018 at 5:48 PM

I disagree with the first comment. Being a slut isn't something to be ashamed of. Sex is a lot of fucking fun, and having a lot of of it can be great. It doesn't hurt anyone, and if you're open and honest about it, you can maintain happy relationships while still enjoying tons of sex. I recommend you read the book The Ethical Slut.

That being said, I can imagine that you're sitting on a volcano of trauma. What your ex did was fucked up; why didn't she try to help you when you obviously weren't in your right state of mind? Why wasn't she wortied? Why did she leave you there? Why would she default to calling you a slut, and why won't she trust your words? You have to underdtand that the answers lie in her own preexisting problems, not you. She has trust issues of her own, and not enough empathy.

And then there's trauma to work out with what all the other people did to you that night. Honestly the guy who first penetrated you was probably the same fuck who drugged you, and the only reason you'd want to know his identity is so you can make sure he never takes advantage of another human being like that again. And it doesn't matter anyway; virginity is a social construct. You get to decide who will be your first. The person who r**es you doesn't get to take your virginity. That's yours to give.

Anyway, ask for help from friends and family to get your life to stability. Changing schools is a good idea, but I might even take a semester off. Once all the outside worries are taken care of, you can focus inward and start to process everything that happened and heal the wounds you didn't know you have. You'll never be the same person you used to be, but you will become a much stronger and more beautiful person than you ever were.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Nov 16, 2018 at 11:43 PM

It sounds as if you were drugged or otherwise compromised/impaired, rendering you incapacitated and incapable of being responsible for your actions, and you are now feeling guilty and punishing yourself for the actions (you were OBVIOUSLY NOT cognizant or culpable for any "activities") perpetrated upon you. If social media has rendered your reputation irreparable or created a pit at your college that is too deep for you to rise above, recognize that you are not to blame (the assholes that r**ed you are!) and transfer to another institution, hold yourself blameless and your head high, and start anew. You are an intelligent and well-spoken woman. Ensure that you feel yourself to be so, and that your community recognizes you as such. You are not diminished. You are loved, you are respected, and you are strong. Exact revenge by shoving it up everyone's ass, make something of yourself, and BE SUCCESSFUL.A

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Dec 8, 2018 at 5:47 PM

College life has no rules. If you end up drunk or drugged in one of thise wild college parties your going to end up fucked and nlt only by one guy. I know because I woke up naked in a room with my clothes scattered on the floor. Never found out who did it.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Dec 14, 2018 at 5:27 PM

I remember a group of girls taking my panties off and lifting my skirt in the school's bathroom. They did it in front of two boys that had sneaked in with them that got off looking at my pussy. It was the worst sexual bullying experience I went through in high school. They stormed out after they had their fun taking my panties with them. The next day I saw a bunch of students gathered the hall looking at my panties pinned up on the bulletin board.

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