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— When I Was a Kid —When I was a kid, I did something awful to a younger family member. I molested him. I touched him in inappropriate places. I believe that this went on for a couple of months. One day, my sister caught me touching him. I believe that the shock of the situation threw her for a loop. I am not sure if she told anyone. I hate that I did this because I was molested as a child. I was 11 years old when I did this to him. I believe that he was 2 or 3 years old. I have held this in all these years and I just want to get it out and begin the process of living free from this burden. GOD, I am deeply sorry. All of these years I have been angry about what happened to me and now I have to face what I have done to my little cousin. I don't want to run the risk of hurting anyone further than I already have. This is a terrible secret and it has kept me in mental, emotional, and spiritual bondage for over 20 years. If I could do this over again, I would never ever harm a innocent little child. What I have done there are no excuses. It is wrong and I know that only GOD and myself will forgive me. All I can do is continue to pray to GOD for the strength to never ever harm another vulnerable helpless person. I have lived with so much guilt over two decades. I am ready right now to move forward beyond this once cruel act that I perpertrated upon a child. LORD, I have done awful, awful acts in my life. I have acted in ways that I am not proud of. I have been unjust in my anger. I have been crazed in my quest to control others. I have felt entitled and justified in my anger. I have even been angry towards you and you have only returned mercy, grace, and love towards me. I know that touching my little cousin was like touching the apple of your eye. I know that what i did is irreprehensible to pretty much everyone. That is why Lord I have to rely on your word when it says, if we confess our sins one to another You are faithful and just to forgive us of our sins and restore us unto you through Christ Jesus by the power of the Holy Ghost. Lord, I have sinned. To anyone reading this, I have sinned...terribly. A part of me wants to say, "Hey, I was a kid, too." Yet, I knew right from wrong. I took advantage of a vulnerable individual as long as I felt that I could get away with it. I did not stop because I felt it was wrong. I stopped when I was caught and the shame and embarrassment made me stop and scared me enough to not do this again. I am afraid of getting caught. More than that, children deserve their innocence. I was robbed of my innocence and I know how debilitating it is to be robbed of your innocence. I know how much I have suffered because my innocence was robbed from me. Lord, I pray that you will continue to strengthen me so that I will not rob another child of their innocence. Thank you for forgiving me for robbing my little cousin of his innocence. GOD please bless me with a renewed mind to never ever ever cause such egregious harm to another. Lord, forgive me for not having enough decency to treat a small innocent child as they should be treated: with love, tenderness, and mercy. GOD, I am so sorry. I am so very sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. No excuses...I acknowledge 100 percent that I was wrong. No excuses. I was completely wrong. And I am so sorry. #4238 — Comments (9) — 10/29/2009 at 12:30 AM — That's Juicy! (0) — That's Lame. (2)
"Jaysus forgives everything," you say. Well I say that PENANCE must be done! You want everyone to feel sorry for you and glad you found religion? Then go to your victim and IN FRONT OF WITNESSES ask for forgiveness!
You won't of course - selfish Christian bastards always talking about "my soul in heaven" and "your soul in hell" and "having the Lord help shoulder the burden". Just so they can feel superior and get rid of the guilt of their crimes. Christians like you are why I'm a pagan!
"Sorry Jesus, I'm a child molester."
"Don't worry, the sins of the flesh are strong try not to do it again"
"WooHoo, I'm going to be a priest!"
so you're gonna not believe in God, JUST BECAUSE a few douche bags give Christianity a bad name? I feel for you. Just because a few douche bags went on a roller coaster ride doesn't mean I wouldn't. I wouldn't be classed a douche-bag for something the minority have done.
Killing all the first-born of Egypt? How many infants did that include? How many two year olds?
What about Job? The poor bastard had his whole life wrecked and for what? So Jehovah and Satan could settle a barroom bet!
Look up the Midianite War, where Jehovah gives direct orders to smash infants' heads against rocks.
The God of the Covenant is a monster, a sociopath, and a figure of insane evil. He is not the creator of the universe, he's a mad demon.
It is clear that you are truly sorry and that you've carried a heavy burden all this time, and I believe God has forgiven you. However, I do agree with the others on one point: Nowhere in your prayer did you pray for your BROTHERS wellbeing. Nowhere did you pray that HE will be able to overcome HIS burden. You did not mention how he was affected by your deeds, but if he is still struggling with his past, you have to face him, and ask his forgiveness too. Then, you should walk a path with him - provided he'll allow you - for him to heal. And pray for him every night.