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— When I Was a Kid —When I was 10 I lived in a trailor park and there was a girl, 13 or 14, who bullied all the younger kids. One time I was wearing my little league uniform and she chased me down and took it. She had this girl about 8 put it on just to further embarrass me. I was in my undershirt and briefs, and the girl in my uniform was mocking me and laughing. Half the trailor park saw me. It was humiliating! #4239 — Comments (17) — 11/9/2009 at 7:41 AM — That's Juicy! (0) — That's Lame. (1)
It was the most embarrassing thing that ever happened to me. I do admit that I started it and some retribution was deserved. I just think they took it too far.
It was embarrassing enough being stripped to my underwear. I have never felt so helpless and humiliated as when she was hoisting me into the air and then left me hanging there. There was no way for me to get loose or cover up.
other girls and I can say she felt sorry for me but I never had courage to approach her for a date because of the continuous teasing i received.
My teacher was kind to me.I developed social insecurity,fear,poor
self esteem,hatred towards myself.I even wanted to suicide but could
not thinking of my parents how devastated they will be.I changed school but i was called ugly,clown,eww face,gross face and girls everywhere in school-canteen,library would laugh at me with their friends.I lost my friends one by one each telling me what a loser i was in front of everyone especially girls or them talking bad about me behind my back.I lost 2 years in high school trying to study science and math in spite of all the teasing.Now in university also,people say that i have an ugly face and laugh at me.I initially failed my courses and I want to pass my probation and achieve my dream of getting a good job.I was considering earplugs to wear in classes because I cannot afford another fail for any course at University.I find it hard to focus when people talk about me/somethin else in class.There are people who target me and make my life miserable everyday.I have learned from the past and have lost my high school life because i thought,cared about what people say,do,think about me.At this point in life I will only care about myself and be optimistic everyday and strive to achieve best grades.Some people who hav been in my high school gossip my past about me in university but I will not let it bother me anymore.When I get a good paying job after graduating, i will leave this place and settle some where else with peace of mind.Girls can be the sweetest and evilest things in the world.I lost interest in even having a girlfriend because I dont want to be insulted in front of her or make her feel bad because of selfish people who care only about themselves.I feel I was too naive,innocent and I know to give myself a good future, i need to forget the past which is not easy but i will try everyday.I even promise to help people who have been verbally abused or bullied in the future.I want to be an inspiration for them.I believe that boys can get over with embarassment faster than girls in most cases.
It makes me sad sometimes that girls make small things a big issue.I was too young to realize that then but now embarassment is not a feeling for me anymore as my mind is set on my GOAL.
My only payback to these people who have tormented me for years in high school and university is to be more rich and more powerful than them.SWEET REVENGE.Because of this bad experience with girls, i dont know if i may ever like a girl around my age.But life as a student is more challenging than any other so as long as I am a student i need to face it.