This is difficult to admit and so disgraceful I couldn't possibly tell anyone how I have existed for the last 4 years. I've been divorced for 6 years and have 2 grown children and so far 2 grandchildren who I visit and see almost every weekend. They and all my friends think I am just a wonderful, loving and moral women with no conception of how I live during the week. My x husband left me a house and substantial amount of alimony since he owns 5 gas stations. Money was never an issue in our marriage but he continuously had affairs with as many as 4 women over the years. He admitted to that many but I believe there were even more and as much as I wanted the sex with him it diminished as time went on. While still married to him I masturbated often and began watching porn. I became fixated on male genitals and spent hours searching the internet showing male genitals. I would masturbate while watching them and loved watching videos of men getting hand jobs from women seeing them ejaculate. There were times I imitated what I had watched on my bastard husband and perform oral sex and jerk him off. I suppose I did it to win back his affection which never happened.


Once he moved out my masturbation became a daily habit and I continued watching the porn almost everyday. I tried getting picked up in bars and nightclubs but my age and my appearance didn't interest any men I cared to be with. Then 5 years ago I met Amy and let her rent a room in my house. I didn't know she was gay at the time and within a month or so we began satisfying each other sexually. She was very attentive with me and I had never participated in sex with another women before. As time went on I was fully open with her and told her of my fascination with male genitals. It wasn't that I didn't appreciate the sex we had together but the fact I wasn't close to being totally gay. I tried to explain to her how I didn't need sex with a man but did desire to play with them and jerk them off and perhaps give them oral sex. Without any hesitation Amy told me she could help. A few nights later her friend Manny showed up and I have to admit it was humiliating. She had told him of my obsession with male genitals and he was more than willing to accommodate me. He is only 43 years old but a handsome guy and Amy coaxed him on to expose himself to us. He and Amy grew up together and the more we talked Amy admitted to having sex with him years earlier before she came out as fully gay. That first night I will never forget because it not only satisfied me being able to jerk off Manny but as I gave him oral sex Amy masturbated me with a vibrator. Manny began coming to my house once a week from then on.


After a few months Manny has brought me 3 more of his friends and for well over 3 years now I jerk off one or two of the them every week. It has progressed where I have had intercourse with all 4 men many times but am always interested in jerking them off and blowing them. Amy always participates but never has any contact with the guys. She does at times let them fondle her breasts but never lets them do anything else. It doesn't bother her that I do and I can't believe how uninhibited I have become with those guys seeing me have sex with Amy. I jerk them off sometimes while Amy is either giving me oral sex or satisfying me with a vibrator. Manny and one other guy have had anal sex with me at times and it boggles my mind how I have become so sexually involved at this stage of my life. I do keep myself in good shape but Amy and all the guys are a lot younger than me. All the years I was married I never cheated on my husband but now I have become a crazed sex addict. I go to church with my daughter, her husband and my granddaughter almost every Sunday. If they knew what a degenerate I have become they would probably disown me. During the week I have some type of sex every night either with Amy, one of the guys or both. Any type of morality I ever had is gone and I shamefully continue participating in the sex with them. Its incredible how fast I became bisexual since it never before entered my mind to have sex with any woman. As much as I am addicted to male genitals I am also extremely satisfied having sex with Amy.

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by Anonymous on Dec 6, 2018 at 1:04 PM

You have nothing to be ashamed about. You should continue to explore your sexuality and any and all legal kinky fantasies. Life is short and you only live once.

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by Anonymous on Dec 8, 2018 at 7:13 AM

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