Not a great big confession, when I was a kid old enough to get out of the house on my own I discovered this spot behind the 7-11 where the gays guys went to fuck. It was pretty secluded, it was deep in the bushes and away from the road and the gay guys would go fuck. I found a place where I could crouch or kneel and when two gay guys came up I would stay real quiet while one would suck the other one off and sometimes lower their pants and lean against a tree or just bend over and hold themselves up with their hands on their knees and get fucked. After a few weeks. it was the same guys, always the same guy got fucked, and after a while I could figure out who they were, one worked at Sears I saw him there, this one big guy worked as an attendant at the hospital.

As I got older and I was masturbating I masturbated while they fucked, leaving my spit on the ground. I liked the feeling on my dick after I had cum, my dick head was so sensitive and with the cum I had for lubrication I squeeze it and rubbed it and sometimes but not always I would get hard again even if the gay guys had left by then. Watching gave me ideas, I couldn't make up my mind if I wanted to be the one that sucked and got fucked or if I wanted to be the one that got sucked and did the fucking. I didn't find out until much later when I found myself in the car with a friend of mine after the movies and I knew I wanted to be the one that sucked and then got fucked.

It had to have been twenty years later when I was visiting my grandmother who still lived in that town that I drove over to that 7-11 and found a closed broken down building. Walking around I found condoms and cigarettes and beer cans and bottles of cheap wine. Not so romantic, I had dreamed of meeting a guy and going back into the bushes and reliving those days but only the memories remain. Towns change and my boyhood town declined after the window frame factory closed. The Sears store is closed and the hospital is now two towns down the road, not that I would run into those two guys.

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by Anonymous on Jan 13, 2019 at 1:00 PM

At 16 and also watching guys get fucked I had those same thoughts, do I want to be the bitch or the stud. One night on the school bus returning from an out of town ball game I found out. Sitting in the last seat I got seduced by a 15 year old black boy, from then on I only wanted to be the bitch.

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by Anonymous on Jan 31, 2019 at 9:18 AM

#1- I learned how to be the bitch at a young age. It was an older boy in my neighborhood that was my first. It was a black boy's persistence that turned me into the pant boy bitch at the tender age of 10.

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