In college I had the opportunity to study abroad in Madrid. I went to school and I went back to my apartment. I was so lonely, I was homesick, I had no human contact. There was a park between my school and the apartment I was living in and I would go sit there and watch people walk by. After dark I would go back to my apartment.

A man came by one day and asked me for the time. I answered, he asked if I was American. He sat down and started a conversation in English telling me about the time he had gone to Florida. We talked about a lot of things, he asked a lot about my school and if I liked it. When it was dark he suggested that if I wanted we could go to this small restaurant and have something to eat.

On the way to the restaurant he put his arm around my shoulder and we walked to the restaurant. It was early and we had something to eat, the owner was the waiter and he offered us wine and he bought the wine and we had a couple of glasses of wine and he whispered that maybe we should just go and instead of walking back to the park so that I could go home we walked down this alley and then this alley and then another alley, I was totally lost and we went to his small apartment.

The washbasin was in the room and the toilet and the small shower inside the bathroom. He washed his face and brushed his teeth and offered me to follow. After I had washed out my mouth using my finger he put his arms around my waist and tried to kiss me. He didn't let go and he kissed me. He didn't talk, he started to kiss my face and to grab my behind, he walked me in small steps and pushed me onto the bed and kept on kissing me. He lay on me as he undid my pants and took my penis in his hand and grabbed it and worked it so that I was half hard before he bent down to suck me. He sucked me hard for a long minute and then got up and took off his clothes and dropped his shorts to the floor. His penis was hard and big and dark.

He took my head in his hands and put my head up against his penis and with his penis against my lips I opened my mouth and sucked him. Then it was easy, he undressed me until we were both completely naked, the window was open to let in the air, the sound of people on the street, he was kissing me and jerking me and sucking me, he was oblivious to the sounds. I sucked him again before he put on a condom and had me turn over and he pushed his finger in me using some sort of lubricant and then got on me and I pushed my back up to let him get his penis in.

For the first time since I was in Madrid I felt good, I had never been with an older man, I had always thought it was gross but right then it felt good, I grabbed the pillow and held it tight and let him do what he wanted to do.

He walked me back to the park and asked my name again and told me that he worked at the bank and maybe we could see each other again. I waited for him several days but he never showed again. The rest of my semester was a disaster and I went home and I have nothing positive to say. My only real memory of my semester abroad was that night. I am not totally over him yet, I wish I knew why he never came back to the park.