After all the year of being in denial, about 5 years ago I finely came to terms who I am. I sucked my first cock at a very young age and felt so guilty about it. Not because of the act but because I loved it. But went back for more. This was in 1972 when it wasn't good to be a male that loved to suck cock. It was just me and mom, mom worked second shift I started wearing her sexy things. I loved wearing her many stockings she had. In the 7th grade gym class had a eye opener with all the cocks hanging. I was the smallest one there and believe me everyone let me know. In high school I was cubby had man boobs a small cock and was embarrassed about the size of my cock. I dated a couple of girls but wanted cock. After high school started going to adult movie theaters and learned guys wanted to get sucked. In my 20's lived alone and cross dressed to my hearts content. Had a few guys over to fuck me while dressed but still in denial about me being a sissy. I married had kids was str8 acting till about 5 years ago. My wife went though menopause and lost interest in sex. With the kids in school I worked nights wife work days and the internet I would dress and met guys. About 2 years ago came to terms I loved being a sissy faggot and came out to the wife. As you can expected it didn't go over well. We are still together but she goes out on dates and I go with men. Of course we don't have sex.