I met him during my senior hear in high school. His family gave scholarships for academic excellence to kids in the bad schools. The word is underprivileged but they all come from bad schools and bad homes. So did I, father killed in a botched gas station robbery, mother works as a janitor for the city, sisters pregnant at 16 and dropouts, and a neighborhood just like us. I was reserved, didn't like boys, and a teacher kept me in school. So I got one of the scholarships. A dinner was held for the various scholarship recipients for that graduation class, I was the only Hispanic there, everyone else was black. The family that gave me my scholarship is Hispanic and they own several McDonalds. He had me sit beside him and on that night he grabbed my leg when my name was read.

I was accepted to a state college and I got tuition, books and room and board, a full ride scholarship from his family. He invited me to their home, he was single and lived with his mother and grabbed me and told me he liked girls who were affectionate. Well I wasn't affectionate and he got angry with me. That's how my four years in college went, he wanted me to be affectionate to him and I didn't want to be affectionate. I don't like to be grabbed and kissed, I just don't like it.

He forced me to apply for graduate school and when I was accepted he said he would pay all the way, but I had to be affectionate to him, in bed affectionate. It was hard, I didn't cooperate and he did it all and he was very upset with me because I didn't show him I liked him. He decided that if I got married to him then I was going to be affectionate, so we got married in a small ceremony, I was 22 and he was 45. He made sure that I was in bed with him and he did what he wanted. I was married so getting pregnant didn't bother me so much, but I didn't get pregnant because I was on birth control.

I finished my graduate program, I went to work for his family's business which includes not only the McDonald's but lots of commercial real estate. He made me the Vice President for the Real Estate business. I didn't get paid a salary because I was an owner so we got distributions and dividends. I liked my job and he let me run it and even if I was 25 I bought and sold several pieces of real estate, leased buildings and ran the business. At home it was different, at home I had to have sex, I had to cook, I had a cleaning service but I had to cook. He wanted affection but it is just not in me.

One of the girls I hired, she graduated from the same school I went to, got close to me and she was very affectionate with me and having her hugging me and hanging onto my neck and kissing my cheek felt good to me. I liked her kissing me and I went to her apartment and we had sex. All the way. For her it wasn't new but to me it was totally new and I hid it from my husband. I felt bad, first time I ever felt guilt around him and decided that I better get pregnant and have some kids before he got rid of me. I didn't see that girl again, I let her go and said she wasn't a good fit.

I don't enjoy sex with my husband, whether it is casual or forced, whether it is to get pregnant or to satisfy him, I don't like being touched or kissed. I do it because I am married to him and he is the father of my kids. I don't fake it. I have not done anything with another girl either. It's is just not worth the risk. I am all business at business and I have done a good job more than doubling earnings and value in the Real Estate division. I just wish that one time I would go to bed and be nice, but the truth is that when he touches me I freeze up and sex is always cold and the only way I can get wet enough is for him to jam his fingers in me until I'm wet.

I cook, and I take care of my kids and I take care of his business, and I look after him, he is sixty now. I consider myself straight, other than one instance I do not associate with women in that way.

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