Based on a true story:

I have a unique fetish that not many women have. Thankfully I found a guy to explore it with. I got him into it and we pushed it to the extreme and now our sex life is beyond ridiculous and I don't know what to think about it.

I guess that you could say that I am submissive. I want a balanced relationship with equality in our day to day lives, but when we are intimate, I am only turned on by aggressive behaviour like being dominated. I don't like weak guys. I like to take on a 100% sexually subservient role. That's my kink. I guess that some women do this too, but I like to think that I am the most extreme submissive, you'll see why...

I met my bf two years back, at the time I didn't really know what I wanted, I just knew that he liked me and that turned me on. I should mention that I 'm a bigger girl, not huge, but I'm chubby. I do have some weight shame and I tend to over-compensate to keep guys interested. A lot of guys wouldn't ever consider sex with me, and on tinder I didn't get many matches.

This is why I got so excited when I found out that my current bf was into me. He is tall and fit and I thought he was totally out of my league. He's a three years older too which I like. I knew that I would do anything to be with him.

On our first date I told him that I like being submissive and he said that he enjoyed being dominant so we just clicked right away. I couldn't wait to experience real domination.

The first few times that we had sex he wasn't that dominant. I think he didn't really get how to do it. He would do things like try to go down on me and I would have to tell him that was a turn off. He would also say that he felt bad if I didn't orgasm. I had to remind him that I was turned on by being submissive and not to focus on my orgasms. He seemed surprised but I also could tell that he liked his new freedom to just be his dominant self and that's what turned me on. To be honest, I can't always orgasm anyways so trying to force it feels useless.

I wanted to see him get dominant and enjoy it. I would suggest doggystyle since it was a very dominant position for him. I obviously enjoy it too ;)
I also encouraged him to be rough with my hair and to grab my throat. It was new to him and he took a while to warm up to it but I could tell he was very turned on.

Over time he began taking control. I loved it. He would do things like pulling me around by my hair. He also likes penetration with no foreplay or lube and although it hurts, the fact that he just did it anyways turned me on. I could tell that he liked blowjobs and I was happy to give them whenever he wanted it. I would first give him one right when we met up and then again before bed. Sometimes he would just bend me over instead but I was happy with both. Of course when I was on my period he would have me give him head for the whole week and he loved that. It felt amazing when we got into the rhythm.

At some point he mentioned female orgasm denial. It is a kink that could be for men or women but he said that he thought I would like it. I had never heard of it but I could tell that he wanted to try so I went along. At first he wouldn't finger me or let me touch myself during sex. He would only touch my nipples and he would twist them so hard that I could barely breathe.

When we did have sex he started having me tell him when I got close to orgasm so that he could pull out before and have me finish him with oral instead. It was so fucking hot I loved how forceful he had become. He knew exactly what he wanted and that's what turned me on.

At this point we were only seeing each other 1-2 times a week and since we started the orgasm denial, I was hornier than ever. He was right that I would like it. I would get so horny and my only outlet was to get him off over and over. I could barely take it. Then when I would get home I would masturbate thinking about it.

After several months of egging him on and getting off on the deprivation, he finally reached his most dominant point. I thought I was ready for it. I didn't know what came next but I wanted my boundaries pushed and he had it all planned out.

What happened was that there was a two week period where our schedules didn't match up. When we finally got together for dinner, I could feel the sexual tension. Once we got into his apartment we went straight to the bedroom and I reminded him that I was off of my period. He didn't care, he pushed me down into the blowjob position and began to unbuckle.

I knew right then that we had reached the final stage of my submission. Blowjobs.

It had been a while since we saw each other and even longer since we had sex and the first time we got together he demanded a blowjob. Of course he did. I encouraged it. I had created a monster... it scared me, but I loved it! It was ridiculously hot. I couldn't believe it was really happening. It was a test, and I passed.

From then on out sex became less and less frequent. I could tell that he had grown to dislike sex, it became a waste of his time. We never had a talk and he never straight up said it, but I knew what was happening.

Now he only wants blowjobs and I had always promised that we could do it however he wanted so that's what he chose. He is hardcore about it. Now when we get in the bedroom he doesn't even let me take my underwear off. It's clear that he doesn't plan to penetrate me.

It honestly really turns me on. I always wanted somebody to deny me like this, I just needed them to make me do it. Of course a lot of guys probably think this is a dream. And most women would puke at the idea, but it was hard work to get him to be this dominant and I am proud that I pulled it off.

Who knows how long we'll keep it up. Every time he grabs me by the hair and snaps his fingers I still get that thrill from the first time. It's hard to believe but I satisfied my biggest fetish. 

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by Anonymous on Jan 9, 2020 at 10:06 PM

Wow your relationship is absurd.
I like being submissive too but DAMN!
Your man is lucky he found you. I know my boyfriend would love this.

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by Anonymous on Jan 9, 2020 at 10:07 PM

I am a fat girl too and I think that we end up giving way more bj's than skinny girls. Everybody knows it, nobody wants to admit it.

Death, taxes, and big girl blowjobs.

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