Although I have never taken part in any act of sex with my step-daughter, I have found her sexually arousing for about 3 years now.
She is a very attractive young lady and one who blossomed very quickly in life. She is also a wonderful young woman with a terrific personality. She has a lot to offer life.
I have felt very guilty about my feelings as I have actually fantasized about her during masturbation and sex with other women.
At some point, she had taken some nude photos of herself for her boyfriend, apparently, and i found them on her computer. This made my head spin and my fantasies much more intense. I used these photos dozens of times in masturbation and finally deleted them for good out of shame.
I am not a man without restraint, so i'm not afraid that i'll actually "cross any lines" - but i have come close in the past and i do feel some shame for my fantasies.
About 1 1/2 years ago, as she was going thru some difficult times with her mother, (my ex), she came to me for some comfort. We basically just talked on the couch and i gave her a shoulder rub and rubbed her back and such.
(This was quite a bit out of charactor for me.)
I didn't cross any hard lines, but this was unusual for me, and i have to admit that i had an erection the whole time. I was incredibly horny for her. I came close to just grabbing her butt or a boob - but did not.
I also tried to kiss her on the lips when she said goodnight, but got her cheek when she turned her head.
Since that time, our contact with each other has been appropriate, but strained at times. She is still able to reach out to me when she has difficulties (or successes for that matter) but we still have a little awkwardness in our relationship. (at least i do.)
finally, although the fantasizing is far less frequent - it has not completely stopped.
your feedback is appreciated. i love this young lady, and do not like these unhealthy feelings that i've had for her.