i'm 20 and in a state university. since the age of 16, i have not been privy to a passionate kiss without both me and the girl being both heavily under the influence of alcohol. what's worse is they are usually far more drunk than i am. I always keep telling myself to control these impulses and actions, but nothing ever changes. the worst part of it is i'll end up exchanging numbers drunk and the next day, and from then on after, i will want nothing to do with them. I'm no prize myself, but i still tell myself that i'm too good looking for these girls. however, i never tell them that i'm not interested. oh no. that would be borderline honorable. i just ignore them or string them along and hope that something comes along for them that distracts them from me. so they either wait until they tire of it, or they get hurt when they see me next weekend hanging all over the next flavor of 'girl who had too much to drink.' I look in the mirror every day and hate the...thing that looks back at me. i also have my own little inferiority complex about my physical appearance. someone yell at me.