I always fake orgasms during sex.
Woman are fake anyway.
So your dishonest to your partner and missing out by not moving on to a better lover.
very common and normal. Let me warn you, no matter how much you love him it will eventually get to you. trust me, it's been over a decade of frustration, i can't figure out how to take care of it myself, but he doesn't notice. Btw, if you try to say something, they just get defensive and cut you off.