Ok. So, hello. I'm 22, male. I guess thats enough, onto my "problem".

I'll start off by saying killing people is wrong and illegal. If you kill someone you get in trouble, goto jail and possible get killed there, either by inmate or the death sentance. I know this.

so why do i wanna kill people i see?
Just some normal lady at the food store. Arguing with her child over cereal. why do i wanna grab her head and slam it so her temple hit the metal corner of the shelf, pouring blood from her skull? Did my mother deny me cereal when i was a child? i dunno, probly not. i ate alot of cereal a a kid.
But that is one of MANY, i'll say it again, MANY brain-dashes I have during everyday(i call them brain-dashes becasue i'll be standing there thinking of something and them wham, my brain dashes to "kill mode" and i get the disturbing thoughts, then i go back to "normal").

One time i even figured out how to kill this girl i work with and planned out a very possible way to get away with it. but i didn't act on it becasue so far, i still understand whats right and wrong.
So, anyone out there have a similar problem?
I just don't wanna snap one day and acually kill someone.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Jan 5, 2004 at 8:52 AM

please talk to a counselor. Those thoughts are not normal.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Jan 5, 2004 at 7:32 PM

Aww damnit.
Are you serious? I thought they were thoughts everyone had but never talked about. kinda like masturbation is taboo. What kind of councelor?

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Jan 6, 2004 at 6:11 AM

Hey Poster,
I have the exact same thing. So many times a day I picture different ways to kill even the sweetest of people. The only thing I can think that could have caused this was as a child I never could get my anger out, I continued to build it up kinda like in a little bottle. Well now that bottle is so big and every now and then a little bit of that anger gets out and that is why I have these visions of killing people. Just my own idea of course because when I went to get help about this they could find nothing wrong with me. laugh, shows what they know.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Jan 6, 2004 at 8:48 AM

Look, I'm 34 and I'll admit that I had similar visions and feeling when I was late teens early 20's. I always had a morbid streak, but was never violent. I never acted on any of these ideas, and eventually they went away.

Why did they go away? I sincerely think it is because as my life too shape I became less dependant on others. I found a woman. I got a good job that paid a good wage. As my life took on a stability that I had earned for my self, I stopped having these kinds of visions.

I am sure that there are a lot of people who read your post and are very afraid and wish you were locked up somewhere. But I think that the best thing would be for you to dedicate yourself to making positive improvements, and filling any holes you may have in your life. After all, you know right from wrong, you aren't crazy, and you can control yourself.

I wish you luck.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Jan 6, 2004 at 7:07 PM

I sometimes feel that way like I imagine all the ways I could kill someone and not get caught, and I just want to go up to some people for no reason at all and just get into a physical fight that turns out bad and we both wind up in the hospital or the other winds up dead or something.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Jan 16, 2004 at 2:39 PM

two words ANGER MANAGEMENT

you need help buddy

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Jan 17, 2004 at 8:20 AM

Personally, I think the fact that you find these thoughts to be a little concerning is a sign that they are perfectly normal. I think we all think, at one time or another, "what would happen to that person if I poked my umbrella through her eye until I felt the point hit the back of her skull?" I don't mean to be flippant - I'm serious. When I'm driving, I often think, "Damn, I'd like to rear-end that jerk who cut me off."

I think it is perfectly normal for people to think such thoughts - it is a release valve that keeps us from actually acting on our impulses. When it would be out of hand is if you ever actually came close to acting on them. Then you would need to seek professional help.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Jan 30, 2004 at 3:01 AM

Hey buddy, I know what you're feeling. It's a thought thats all. I once ran it through my head about how I would kill this girl who attempted to use my social security number to get an apartment in my name.Will I actually do it is the difference between thinking about it and acting it out.

T.C

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Feb 2, 2004 at 3:29 AM

Okay, the only thing I can suggest is to possibly taking up weight lifting or boxing. Take the energy you have when you have your "mind dashes" and picture things that make you angry and beat the holy hell out a punching bag. When I get too pissed off, I write down my thoughts into poem form. Everyone is different, and most men wouldn't admit to writing poems (I'm female, boobs and all :D) so I figured maybe taking it out physically on inanimate objects might help ya. I hope everything goes well!

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