all three of us had just met. i happen to actually be the same age as the guy while the other girl was 1/4 our age older than us. they held hands and he played in her hair blah blah uncomfortable for me. only im a good sport so it doesn't register till around the third day that hey the pda might not be so oooh and ahh for me. and she had a boyfriend already who was currently having commitment issues with her. and she wonder why. no honestly she wonder this. anyway so he the guy who has no interest in me needs a favor and ask which of us are really his friend and will do him a favor. and i am just so useless yet used up because im the one who's going to help. and she didn't even make a effort to. i can't be me and at the same time say no, bc i am a friend and i'd like to help. trying to be vague on details the favor involved traveling with him to a near by city.
but im at my wits end on being so helpful yet no one would like to hold my hand. im about ready to become the mean unfriendly girlfriendable person bc at least then i dont have to feel used.
no anger towards him personally really. just a too long line of history of this repetition situation.