-
— Anything Goes —I'm 27, female, and BBW. I have always been SOME form of a large girl, though when I was 17 I was only a size 16. Quiet, smart, shy and introverted during school, it's not rare for me to still get double takes when I swear.
I grew up in an extremely religious household, but I knew from an early age that I was different. Played with myself as an early teen (totally against the rules), read a LOT of online erotica, watched porn, chatted in dirty IRC channels. Discovered I was kinky during this whole process.
Once I was legal, I sought out and found the opportunity to do some erotic photography. It progressed from one session, to a second one with my boyfriend, to a third time with someone I'd only just met to do kinky things. Though I didn't find the photographers attractive, I often fantasized about being overwhelmed during this last shoot.
I had a handful of relationships, but never managed to get anything started with real kink experience. I hooked up with the last person I'd done the kinky photo shoot with, and though it started out kinky for me, it quickly turned into kinky for him (he was more sub than I was... by a lot. He was bi and is currently in a gay relationship). Though I was very good at being dominant (I had all that submissive intuition) it wasn't fulfilling and we eventually called it quits.
As recently as a year ago, I occasionally entertained men for supplementing my legitimate income when I was in a living situation where money was hard. This behavior only happened for a few months, but my boyfriend LOVED that I was fucking other guys. He'd come in and just go nuts on me after. He even waited outside one night to listen to me moan (I'm a bit loud and I've been told that my moans could sell movies).
No matter what I do I can't seem to get my kink jumpstarted in the bedroom in a relationship. My brain continues to fantasize, and I love watching porn and hentai. My boyfriend is dominant, but hasn't had much experience, and I'm not easy to read, so he's a bit unsure when is a good time or not.
The sex is great, but I find that my sexual interest is waning, and I know it's in part to the fact that I'm not getting any kink.
One of my biggest fantasies is to be tied up and abused by multiple guys, and one of my boyfriend's biggest fantasies is to see me fucked by another guy. I hope one day to have both these fantasies fulfilled, but the frustrating thing is that I can't organize it, or it kinda defeats the purpose.
#8984 — Comments (0) — 3/6/2010 at 10:45 PM — That's Juicy! (5) — That's Lame. (2)
Sorry, there are no comments for this story, secret, or confession.