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— My Cheating Heart
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I have been carrying on an affair with a woman for the last 10 years. She is my HS sweetheart and I looked her up on classmates.com after I had been married for a year. It had been almost 20 years since we re-connected. 20 years ago she was the love of my life but it didn't work out because we were too young to make good decisions, I think. Now she is my 2nd wife. She is waiting for me to get rid of my current wife of 10 years--and I have promised I would one day--but it has not happened yet. We see each other every day, I drive into work with her and back. We go on vacations. I love her deeply. Sexually she will is uninhibited and will do anything that I want too. I am uninhibited to. I cant leave my wife to be with my soulmate because of finances. My mortgage is 1 million and the house is worth less than half of that. So I am paying a million dollar mortgage for something that is worth far less. Cant sell. I work for the feds and require a security clearance so I cannot just blow everything up. I have promised her that it will be only us one day, but I don't really see how it will happen and allow me to keep my clearance/career/finances/etc/ in tact. I know that I need to expect to lose something, I just am not willing to lose everything I have achieved for love.
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6/16/2010 at 8:52 PM
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That's Juicy! (2)
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That's Lame. (13)
— My Cheating Heart —I have been carrying on an affair with a woman for the last 10 years. She is my HS sweetheart and I looked her up on classmates.com after I had been married for a year. It had been almost 20 years since we re-connected. 20 years ago she was the love of my life but it didn't work out because we were too young to make good decisions, I think. Now she is my 2nd wife. She is waiting for me to get rid of my current wife of 10 years--and I have promised I would one day--but it has not happened yet. We see each other every day, I drive into work with her and back. We go on vacations. I love her deeply. Sexually she will is uninhibited and will do anything that I want too. I am uninhibited to. I cant leave my wife to be with my soulmate because of finances. My mortgage is 1 million and the house is worth less than half of that. So I am paying a million dollar mortgage for something that is worth far less. Cant sell. I work for the feds and require a security clearance so I cannot just blow everything up. I have promised her that it will be only us one day, but I don't really see how it will happen and allow me to keep my clearance/career/finances/etc/ in tact. I know that I need to expect to lose something, I just am not willing to lose everything I have achieved for love. #9077 — Comments (1) — 6/16/2010 at 8:52 PM — That's Juicy! (2) — That's Lame. (13)