... but I don't. My husband and I have been living far apart due to circumstance for over a year. We love each other very much, but our sex life has been virtually nonexistent for the past 5+ years, much to my dismay. After over a decade of fidelity, I went out and picked a guy up and slept with him--barely. Unfortunately, he turned out to be ultra vanilla: no tongue kissing, didn't like oral sex (for him!) and he lasted about 30 seconds. What I feel worst about is picking a loser to cheat with, not the cheating itself. My goal now is to be more choosy. I don't want another relationship--I love my husband. I just want some hot sex with someone who's not a prude. My husband will never know about this because, frankly, it's not a big deal emotionally. I just feel like a jerk for "wasting" my cheat.

What I *do* feel bad about is getting way too drunk and bullying some nice girl in a bar and calling her a tease because she wouldn't kiss me.