Straight Female / 28
Identity Politics On Steroids, In The End We're All Whores
First I should point out that I am Mexican American. I grew up in the 'hood'. My father? is white, but who? my mother says it was one night when she and a friend were picked up at a bar. But being white I was smarter than my peers and was sent to a g*fted program in the third grade. I was scholar shipped into Northwestern. I found out early that being a scholarship recipient put me into the marginalized group, and being Mexican made me 'brown'.
In addition during my time at NW you had to be a feminist on steroids, preferably a lesbian too. Brown, marginalized, lesbian, feminist was a ticket you couldn't turn down. I got a job with a consulting firm in Washington DC. The trouble was that I wasn't a lesbian, and I was sexually attracted to older married white men. I became the side bar to an influential man, and became pregnant.
I was shown out the back door, sent to work for a 'sister' company back 'from whence I came'.
I quickly fell in love with a married man and he recognized my child. He wanted a Mexican girl, so I went Mexican for him. He liked being around my mother and my Mexican family. I got pregnant for him. In my house none of my sisters had husbands either, they had kids with men they dated. I fit in, brown worked for me, and he liked me 'Mexican' showing off a belly.
In the end it isn't difficult, you play the part where the money takes you. We're all whores that way. Mexican, brown, disadvantaged, lesbian, feminist, puta. I identify with 'novia'. "La novia de Mr. Weiss". Nice euphemism for puta.
In addition during my time at NW you had to be a feminist on steroids, preferably a lesbian too. Brown, marginalized, lesbian, feminist was a ticket you couldn't turn down. I got a job with a consulting firm in Washington DC. The trouble was that I wasn't a lesbian, and I was sexually attracted to older married white men. I became the side bar to an influential man, and became pregnant.
I was shown out the back door, sent to work for a 'sister' company back 'from whence I came'.
I quickly fell in love with a married man and he recognized my child. He wanted a Mexican girl, so I went Mexican for him. He liked being around my mother and my Mexican family. I got pregnant for him. In my house none of my sisters had husbands either, they had kids with men they dated. I fit in, brown worked for me, and he liked me 'Mexican' showing off a belly.
In the end it isn't difficult, you play the part where the money takes you. We're all whores that way. Mexican, brown, disadvantaged, lesbian, feminist, puta. I identify with 'novia'. "La novia de Mr. Weiss". Nice euphemism for puta.
